Was It All Okay?

Everybody asks how is Barani, nobody asks how are you? So, how are you? Were you okay? Was it all okay and insane this entire lockdown period? Is it just the GDP or your mood too, which went down? Did you feel that nothing is right? Did you miss somebody? Did you cry all alone? Was it really so hard to express? Did you fight? Did you scream? Was it really so hard to get up from the bed? Did you just lie on the bed whole day long? Did you tell everybody you have nothing to wear and nothing to read thus, its not your fault that you don't feel good and lie on bed the entire day? Is it really about the clothes and the books? Come on! you wear the same two-three t-shirts and you hardly study!  Do you miss college? I do. Do you miss meeting you friends? You really miss that cute sense of freedom where you could do anything without explaining your parents, don't you? Do you feel burdened with thoughts?  Do you end up overthinking all the time? Did you fight with your parents? Did you lock yourself in room for days? Do you really wanna go out and party? (from next time do not cancel plans). Do you just keep scrolling through your gallery and end up missing all those people even more? Did you feel you have no one and nothing left? Did you find it really so hard to live and survive? Were you just ruining yourself? Did you stop talking to everybody? Or did you try to talk but it never went well? Was it really so hard? Is it still so hard? If yes? You are not alone. This happens with almost all of us. Most of us are really so scared to express this. 

And how do you feel now? Is it fine? Have you started adjusting? Has your heart found some comfort in something or someone?  All those worst and terrible feelings, do you feel it anymore? Has your mind calmed down? Do you feel okay now? Do you feel happy now? If not, YOU WILL. This is going to be fine, really fine. You are going to be so happy that you won't be able to recall how it felt to be this sad. This is so temporary. This is gonna perish soon. And then you are gonna look yourself in the mirror and say, ''oh  my god! why didn't I invest all this time on my face and hair. I had all this time to look so beautiful!!! and I am still ugly.'' YOU STILL HAVE TIME. GOOOOO!! YOUR FACE AND YOUR HAIR NEED YOUUU!!

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Author:

Aakanksha Singh

B.A(H) History, 2nd year